Friday, June 26, 2009

Back from Bali

So, we're back from Bali for a week before we jet off to Malaysia for visa work. Just enough time for me to fall ill once again. Life in an impoverished country can take its toll on even the most diligent of us.

While in Lovina Beach area on the north coast of Bali, Mona and I both completed the PADI Open Water SCUBA certification. A phenomenal sport...philosophical undertaking...shift in perspective. I have many diving friends that have boasted of the beauty and majesty of life underwater, but I couldn't have understood the depth of this truth until I did it myself. And all this joyful transformation takes place a mere few meters under the surface. Added benefit: now when we're on vacation, we have another option of activity.

My underwater camera will be developed shortly. Pics to come here and on Facebook.

Friday, June 05, 2009

Prayer for the Future

Lord, guide my future path in wisdom. Enable me to be courageous through transition. Open my mind to new possibilities that my culture or background would negate. Unstop my ears to the cries of the suffering and the music of humanity. Speak to me through your valued creations and draw me to a deeper understanding of the unending love upon which you founded all that is. Help me to recognize and develop my Self as a member of your family in whose growth you seem immensely concerned. Thank you for the Sacrifice that freed me to see, receive, embrace and extend reconciliation to and from all. Amen.

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

Jane Austen in Java

Reading Pride & Prejudice while on Java adds a new flavor. Austen's humorous look at young passionate romance and the ever-flirtatious pursuit of a spouse mimics modern Javanese life in many ways.

The first parallel I see comes in the words of Austen's young maidens who exclaim that being mid- to late-twenties without a husband makes one an old spinster. Many of the girls here are quick to jump at marriage as a form of social salvation, accompanied by the obligatory first child within a year. Unwed girls of 25 or more, and boys of 27 or more, are held in suspicion for their apparent lack of social understanding. Parents become nervous for their child's well-being, and extended relatives watch attentively out of the corner of their eyes while searching vigorously for a prospect from other circles of influence.

The second major parallel I notice between Austen's realm and that of modern Central Java lurks a little below the surface. In Emma and Sense and Sensibility, Austen's heroines collide with the age-old battle of youth: love versus security. Do I marry for basic compatibility and money? Do I pursue love and passion at all costs? Isn't love all that we really need? Although their is little money in Java, family ties and neighborhood connections become that security that correlates to a healthy income in Austen's novels. I know and know of several girls who have married for the social security of a spouse over passion.

One major contrast still remains. Austen's novels are filled with wealthy, single young men who are in search of a wife just as much as they are being pursued. Social life in Kent or Hamptonshire revolves around who has how much per year and how do we bat our eyes at them. Life in Central Java is not so high up. With next to no middle class, the measurement of a man by his income is more or less a question of if he has one at all. Even then, the compulsion to marry overwhelms any recognized Western sense of economical sustainability. "Neither of us have jobs, education, ambition or prospects, but let's get married and have kids right away anyhow." Whereas Austen's families are concerned with a consistent income and a life of comfort, many in Central Java see children as a sign of arrival, even if it means that they can only afford to eat 1,000 calories each per day.

Perhaps Austen's Sense and Sensibility wouldn't be understood here after all. Our Western notions of sensibility and practicality don't fit with Javanese rukun or gotong royong, surface social harmony above all.

Monday, May 18, 2009

Losing or Loosing

Living and working and loving in an environment like this, where everyone's lives intersect more than just at the office, binds us in ways that I've never had in a multi-sphered social construct. Here, we live in a culture where our Western education and access to - not to mention addiction to - international perspectives, information and dialog are truly foreign. This means that to get a taste of open dialog from multiple perspectives I, more often than not, revert to my International community. (Notably, there are several Indonesians who fit in this category; however, they are often ridiculed by their family or neighbors as "foreign wannabes.")

This combination of intellectual dependence, working proximity, and emotional/spiritual connection melds us as friends and brothers. Relationships are formed quickly and deeply. Most who spend more than a couple of years in this environment become either very bold or very timid relationally. All or nothing. Love without hesitation or wall up the heart. It's a place of beautifully dysfunctional people to be sure.

Graduation is this coming Thursday. Our fifth class to watch leave this magical place.

I'm not sure what to make of it.

Another section of friends off to four continents. Excitement and pain.

So, after five years of this investing and releasing, which is it? A losing of a relationship or a loosing? Am I selfish to say that not seeing some of them ever again means that I'll not know the return on my investment? Am I overly spiritual to say that I'll find out postmortem? And does it matter either way?

Graduation is this coming Thursday. And in some ways, the most exciting thing about it is that I get to wear my new tailored suit. Saying good bye is never a highlight for me.

Friday, May 08, 2009

Did I Miss Anything

By Tom Wayman
Question frequently asked by
students after missing a class

Nothing. When we realized you weren't here
we sat with our hands folded on our desks
in silence, for the full two hours

Everything. I gave an exam worth
40 per cent of the grade for this term
and assigned some reading due today
on which I'm about to hand out a quiz
worth 50 per cent

Nothing. None of the content of this course
has value or meaning
Take as many days off as you like:
any activities we undertake as a class
I assure you will not matter either to you or me
and are without purpose

Everything. A few minutes after we began last time
a shaft of light descended and an angel
or other heavenly being appeared
and revealed to us what each woman or man must do
to attain divine wisdom in this life and
the hereafter
This is the last time the class will meet
before we disperse to bring this good news to all people
on earth

Nothing. When you are not present
how could something significant occur?

Everything. Contained in this classroom
is a microcosm of human existence
assembled for you to query and examine and ponder
This is not the only place such an opportunity has been
gathered

but it was one place

And you weren't here